Theres no restart button

I worry I'm not good enough. That I never will be. Some part of me deep down feels like I'll fail. I know that uncertainty is part of the greater ill, but I'm so uncertain I'm frozen. I want reassurance, guidance, but I feel like I don't have the right to ask. Don't deserve it. And somehow thats how I'm supposed to feel? I wish I could hope the way I used to. Not be afraid of saying what I think, how I feel. I'm not supposed to, but things don't just go away. Theres no restart button.