shitty.
i hate you lancelot.




24 hours.

and i will sink my teeth in and hold on for dear life, that way the icebergs can't reach our warmth.
our tidal wave has gravity beyond imagining, so hold me close and my cave will let us weather the storm.

shed our skin lt the sun shine in

Sometimes its funny how decisions are made for you. There's no way you can choose everything in life, some things come out to fate. Or rather just the way things are supposed to be.

[I was surprised, before I knew it I was back where I was.]

bella voce

the instability means its growing, changing, broadening
unlearning and learning and relearning
its scary to feel like its not in control
can't hear the pitch as well, can't feel the bells as well

but its selfish not to let it go

Poe

Deep into the darkness peering,
Long I stood there, wond'ring, fearing,
Doubting -- dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before...

hot dogs = eternal glory
cheese sandwiches = rare delicacy


snow = blank canvas

snow! winter excites me beyond belief. sledding and hot chocolate and icicles and scarves and snowballfights and reading by the fire and you.

its your gravity that makes me tremble
the abstraction that compels dispersed matter to coalesce
the magnetic power of your grazing grasp
soon the things you live will ignite

or let me sail away

I'm ready and I will traverse the fields of fire to get to you. The sun is fading and I will keep you warm if you let me.

my sunshine in the morning
my fireworks at the end of the day
the warmest chord I ever heard
Play that warm chord, play and stay

I want to make you feel free

Oblique

That's what happened to our relationship. One voice moved and the other remained stationary. Its a beautiful think in tonal music, but it wasn't in a liaison such as ours. Its not reality. And I'm glad this is.

solid. very solid. and who am i to complain?

hell week, but by friday night I will be able to sit with a mug of hot chocolate and let the world go by.

Ray

just think if we build on this trust that we have for one another ... maybe its the last thing you want to hear, who am i to play god

this isn't an invention of the mind that tempts me with such happiness, so let me speak my peace...

its good to be here.
feels like home, cozy and familiar.
but the odd bit is its new and exciting at the same time.
gliding. sparkling. shining in the darkness.

if we were standing close like this would people think we were lesbians? maybe...